Mom, my heart is breaking not having you here. You were my friend, my confidant my blood, my everything. You and I have never been apart for more than three weeks and even on those days we talked every day on the phone. Your beautiful smile, your positive outlook the way you could always make me feel better about any situation, these are memories that will carry with me until the day I die. I know we are not guaranteed anything in this unpredictable world but you not being here is a shock! You were such a strong woman having suffered with RA since your twenties, and never complained you were just happy to be alive! My lovely bionic woman with hip and knee implants, you endured all that pain just to function. You were always such a caring mother and no matter how much pain you were in you fulfilled all your duties as a mother.